my young jedi apprentice

So this week/last week has been a whirlwind. My friend suzy came up and visited me, funn fun. last weekend I headed to millar for my sisters grad. Which was awesome to see how God has been working in her life, I feel like she is surpassing me....oh young patawan...
anywho, my mom came up as well, which she proformed a fashion show for me, and she was wearing jewerly (which kind surprized me (if you know my mom, you would know why this would shock me so) but a good surprize). afterwards I headed home, picked up my planting gear, which was in the same spot that I left it back in august....
On monday i went up to shaunavon to my friends birthday party, I am really gald that i was able to make it!!! I really look up to all the girls that were there, they are all so amazing and God has totally blessed me to have them as friends. Then I headed back to saskatoon. Another friend Cassidy came up yesterday, so I have been busy hanging out with her, she is like a sister to me, so I am glad to be able tosee her before I head off to the blue yonder.
Anywho, I am looking forward to finishing school on saturday, doing some shopping, seeing breann and sarah, and going to the phantom of the opera this weekend!!!!
p.s i head off in 7 days!!!!

Romance novels and the old man

During the day at the nursery, many people call to ask if we take donations. An older guy phoned in and asked if we "take books?". And I said, assuming that they were childrens books said, "yes we do take books". A little while later the guy who had phoned in rang the door bell. He was about seventy, and he was shaking trying to hold up the massive tubaware container. He was really exicted that he got to donate these books and that they were not going to go to waste. Then he asked me if he could keep the tubaware container. I of course said yes, meanwhile thinking about the future work this is going to cause for me. As he took off the tubaware container's lid I saw that it full of harlequin romance novels. The nursery really doesn't need harlequin romance novels, but thinking, "ok, it's only one tubaware container, I can just put the books in the garage for the food bank". After he finished dumping the books, and by books, I mean about 100 of them. He said, "I have more in the car!". and I said, "oh, wow" with a double meaning. So he came back from the car dumping the books on the floor, while i tried to make some organized pile of it, and also trying to keep my eye on the two little tikes who like to get into trouble. As I am still in the hallway he comes back with yet another tubaware container which was of course filled with these romance novels. As he finished he said "that he was super happy that he found some place to drop off the books", and I didn't have the heart to tell him that we don't use these types of books, so I thanked him. I thought it was funny that a 70 year old would have all these romance novels; but he probably didn't even know what they were and I don't think he realized that the crisis nursery was a place for children. And because I was by myself that day, I didn't have time to get the books out of the hallway and into the garage, so everybody who dropped off childrens stuff got to see the massive pile of harlequin novels.

Go now, you are forgiven!

I was talking to a friend on msn the other day, and he told me to listen to Dispatch, "General". I have listened to that song, well, I am listening to it now, but I have listened to it everyday.

Man, I can't believe how fast this year went by. I can't believe that I only have two days of classes. I feel again that I am closing another chapter on my life and moving forward to something new. It kinda seems to be the theme of my life, probably why i write about it so often.

God's been placing some ideas on my heart for next year which I will post about sometime in the near future!. I am excited about it and I am praying that if it is God's will, it will get worked out! One thing that I really don't like about tree planting is that I am way from everything going on, away from being able to organize life. In some respects it is nice to have the chance to get away from everything, but when you are applying to different colleges and ..... it makes it hard. So i am feeling a little aprehensive about all the things that I need to get done in the next 25 days. It feels like may, june and july are a vortex in time and I go into a black hole...

But I have been thinking about prayer a lot lately. I have been thinking on how much my prayer life sucks, to be brutally honest. When I think about the importance of prayer and compare it to my measly efforts, my efforts feel.... Sometimes I go into prayer with such a defeatest attitude. In James it says that when you pray you must really believe and not doubt. And a double minded man should not think that he will reicieve anything from the Lord-he is unstable in all he does. It is almost like when I pray I have a fail safe, "well, lord if it is not your will then....". Maybe because I am scared to pray about something with authority and have God not answer me in the way that I want to be answered. It's like prayer is pandora's box, and I have the keys, but I am too scared to open that power.

The amazing thing though, God has answered many of my prayers, and I have seen Him answer the prayers of others. I have seen Hand work in things I have not even prayed about this year.

But there is still one thing lingering in the back of my mind. I have prayed many times for the salvation of my mom, brother, and... my dad. Everytime I go home, it's the same thing, and I start to blame myself: am I not righteous? what sin(s) are harboring in my heart? I feel like such a failure and gives me enough of a seed in my heart to be scared to pray with that authority.

Scales have been falling off my eyes.

"what other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the Lord our God is near us whenever we pray to him?". God has a heart for me!! God hears the prayers of the righteous, and I am made right in Christ. The prophet Jeremiah gives us this promise of restoration: call to me (the Lord) and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do do not know. He tells us to ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks recieves; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

There is such a myriad of things that I am thinking about. Maybe I am viewing unanswered prayer from my perpective, maybe from God's perpective it is answered. Maybe he is developing my character, what is he teaching me? I will continue to search...anybody have insight about unanswered prayer?

But one thing that I know, is that I do have a God that I can trust in. I was reading in Luke about the parable of the persistent widow. Again, I am convicted. Jesus told his disciples this parable so that they should always pray and never to give up. The widow kept coming to the judge pleaing for justice. For some time the judge refused, but finally agreed to answer her request because she was unrelenting. This parable tell me to be persistant, like the widow. Persistant I will be then. So pray for me not to give up on praying for my family. And pray for the salvation of them with me.

I still haven't fully understood all the power in praying. I still have a lot to learn about prayer, meditation, and listening. Slowly I am learning.

The next best thing

Well, I have a new gizmo. I absoultely love my new ipod. I have never had one before, but I don't know how I managed to live without one for so long. I orginally didn't buy any mp3 players or ipods because I listen to my music way to loud. But I made a promise to myself; one that the volume will not exceed any decimals that may cause further damage to my already almost deaf ear. I am just looking forward to being able to have my music with me when I go tree planting. Which, I leave this month!!! Crazy.

Your face is written in my soul

Garcilaso de la Vega (1501-1536)
Your face is written in my soul, and when
I want to write about you, you alone
Become the writer, I but read the line;
I watch you where you still watch me, within.
This state I am and always will be in.
For though my souls imprints a half-design
Of what I see in you, the good unkown
Is taken on a trusting regimen.
what was I born for if not to adore you?
My ills have shaped you to the bent they give.
I love you by a daily act of soul.
All that I have I must confess I owe you.
For you I came to life, for you I live,
For you I'd die, and do die, after all.

hey guys, I guess I haven't posted in awhile. I have been working, which has been keeping me occupied and school, which, I technically should be working on a ten page paper due wednesday morning. I am writing it for my native studies class, I am discussing the breakdown of the family and the effects of residential schooling. I kinda breaks my heart to hear about the stories of what happened during that time.

I was sitting at tim hortons the other day doing some reading. It was during the afternoon and a bunch of elderly people came in. Sometimes I just like to watch people, I know it sounds kinda creepy. This one fellow was so cute. He went up to the till and asked for a rrroooolll up the rim to win!! and then started to say that he was going to win that boat!! it was soo cute. And then a bunch of women sat down beside me and said, "make sure we save some spots for our boyfriends!" hehe...

Life is only a blink of an eye and there is a lot of living to do.

I should go and get ready so i can head off to the university. But I want to leave off with a few Bible verses.
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbol. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all the mysteries and all the knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. IF i give all that I posses to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. When I was a child I talked like a child, thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part, thenI shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And all these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love" (1corinthians 1:31-4, 11-13)
" Just as the result of one trespass was condemnation for all men, so also the result of one act of righteousness was justificaiton that brings life for all men. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous"(Romans 5:18-19)
" For you did not recieve a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you recieved the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba. Father." The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit and that we are God's Children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory". (Romans 8:15-17)
"What have you done by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn't we say to you in Egypt, 'Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians?' It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!. Moses ansered the people. "Do not be afriad. Stand firm and the you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. THE LORD WILL FIGHT FOR YOU; YOU NEED ONLY TO BE STILL". (Exodus 14: 11-14)

duct tape

I have a ikea bed, one that is very cheaply made, but it does the trick, well it did. The bed has a wooden frame where a piece of thin metal runs along length of it. This thin piece of metal is responsible for holding up the wooden planks, which are of the cheapest qualitiy as well, that fit in the wooden frame to hold up the mattress. Can you see the problem arising? I have had many problems with these planks of wood falling down creating a crater in my bed. So then I usually, pull off the mattress put which ever plank of wood that fell off the metal runner back into place, then I can go back to having a normal bed. This method has (or had) been working for over a year now.
Then one night as I was sleeping peacefully I must of rolled into a week point because I woke up to the sound of my bed saying, crack(feeling one board go ) crack (feeling another board go)crack(and another one) crack (and yet another one) crack (translated, " i can't hold you up anymore"). I am now wedged between my mattress and wide awake.
A week later I finally decided to fix this little problem. I duct taped the planks of wood to the metal runner, which I thought was a pretty good idea, hey?? Anywho, last night as I was again sleeping peacefully, my bed fell apart, again.....Really I know I have gained some weight but this, this is ridiculous! So I think I am giving up on the bed. At least I know the floor wont cave in...

a little secret

So, here it is...
I have no clue what I am doing most of the time.

I was thinking lately about what passions God has laid on my heart.

I think I have come to the conclusion that I am going to go into ministry. Have no clue when, or where or how or what I will be doing.

But I have a vision

And it is a good one

and someday

it will happen....


your word is a lamp onto my feet and a light onto my path

I am getting excited


This weekend was awesome to go home. I love meeting new people and seeing the work that God has been doing in their lives. I love the stars, I love the warmer temperatures of the south.

I was driving home on thursday night. It was a beautiful night out. But Between Shaunavon and frontier there is a huge valley. The moon was full and there was dense fog in the valley leveling off at the top. IT felt like I was in a plane looking down at the heavens below. Illuminated by the bright moonlight, it saturated the fog, highlighting every corner and fold of the valley. Breathtaking....i wish you could of seen it.

Brace yourself for this....

So, I don't usually listen to her, but as I was radomly walking in walmart, I saw her CD. And I bought it. I had friends already told me that they were going to disown me. Haha....
confession tho...i don't mind some of the songs....they are kinda catchy....

Things on the brain...

Spending time with family and friends, midterms, notes, cars that don't start, get notes, meetings, eating popcorn, hockey games, road trips, God-inspiring, waiting, deciding, hoping, craming, late nights, early mornings, red bull, chocolate, deep converstations, french vanillas, running around like a chicken with it's head cut off, laughing, reading, freezing cold temperatures, excitement for warmer days, ways to fix my bed that collapsed while I was sleeping, Augustine, concerts that have been up lifting, meeting interesting people at the concerts, age of empires,cats (pyscho cats especially), planning, china, hong kong, Haiti, dance music, blancing, Lost, assignments, alone time, sleeping in, scheming to scare kjersti, being silly.....
Trying not to make the meaningless things meaningful.

Whirlwind of a week

So Breakforth was an awesome weekend! It was nice to escape from saskatoon and spend time with some friends i have not seen in while...i miss you guys! And of course God moved in my heart, but this year was different from other years I have gone. I don't even know how to put my finger on it. I think it has to do with my own healing and walk with Christ, the other years that I went, it felt that God totally changed me through the weekend. I totally learned things and God spoke to me, but it's cool because I think the dynamic of my relationship with God is changing; how I view Christ, how i view my-self...Again I can't quite put my finger on it!
on the saturday night I went with my friend Chelsea to watch the emerson letters. I bought a t-shirt, they are really nice! It was funny though, because I used to live in the neighboor hood of the avenue skate park. Actually building is where I saw my first movie, mrs. doubtfire. It used to be a movie theater...I lived on 91st and a 119th ave...sketchy part of the city. Seeing the area, it kinda brought up some memories from when I was a kid, funny how that happens.
There has been a lot going through my head lately. If you have been watching the news lately they have been talking about the Yellow Quil reserve. Two little sisters froze to death in -50 weather. Their dad who was drunk, took them outside in t-shirts and diapers. The dad passed out and a couple hours later, somebody saw him and called the ambulance. When he woke up he asked about his kids. Then they found the two little girls frozen. This saddens me.
As somebody who wants to go into social work, I know that I am going to have to do my dues in the child protection end of it, unless you are really lucky and can get in the hospital or school side of it. Working at the nursery ( which it is already the child protection end of it),i also get a glimpse of some social workers down at the department. I haven't had a lot of positive experiences with them, sometimes I wonder why certian social workers are even in the area of child protection. With some of the apprehended children that come into the nursery, to read their file of what they have gone through, some of it is horrific. Then to see them bounce from foster home to foster home....or when they put them in homes where they have not really done a background check....stupid!!!...
okay I am going on to a different subject right now, I am getting mad, and it is a lot more complex then what i am describing.
I really like going to work, I love putting babies and kids to sleep, and I really appreicate the people that I work with. I am going to buy a rocking chair, one of those wooden ones.
My other thoughts have been on a gal that I see once a week. She is sweet, kind hearted, and gentle. She died her hair red, it makes me feel so flattered! Another reason why I don't want to leave to go tree planting, but I think that I am going to work it out with BBBS that I can send her packages through the summer. I don't know if I have impacted her life, but I know that she has impacted mine!
Also, I have a new plan. When I am 35ish, I am going to adopt a bunch of kids from all over the world. I might not be married, but meh, I am sure that I would get lots of support from my community and if they are in a over crowed orphanage, and having a single mom would be better than nothing!


I am always filled by knowing that I am not alone. We weren't meant to be alone. Even tho some days I don't feel like this, but the truth is not rested upon my fickle feelings. It stands firm. He will never leave me nor forsake me... He holds my hand and guides me, He captures every tear I shed in a bottle, He rejoices in me, He knows my heart, and He will never stop loving me. I will never be alone.

Blessings!

The Valley of Dry Bones

I watched p.s I love you tonight, it's the first movie i cried watching since.....star wars revenge of the sith. Ha ha...I am a nerd. Although it was sad in some parts, i really liked the over all general feel/message of the movie.
I wont go on about the movie, i wouldn't want to wreck it for all you who haven't seen it yet.

I wish i could pull the e-brake on life right now. It's going by sooo fast and it doesn't help that so many things are going on so many things to look forward to(breakforth is this weekend is just one of them!!!). Three more months and I am back in the bush again, which is going to be a heck of a lot harder to leave the city this year than it was last year.

I am about 75% sure that i am going to take a break from school next year.

I have a power point presentation to do for my soc 220 class and I have to fill the silence for a half an hour, hopefully maintaining the attention of my fellow class mates. My intervertness is telling me just to do the research paper instead; but I am forcing myself to do the class presentation instead and to tell you the truth, I want to share what I have to say...I remember back in high school, I hated reading out loud, my face got red, i stuttered when I got nervous, I liked to fade away. I got really intimidated by people so I never went up to introduce myself. So i immersed myself in sports.

Man i have changed a lot and hopefully I will continue to change as I grow more and more in Christ...

The funny thing tho, I would rather do a twenty page paper on anything pretaining to biblical studies then write a 5 page paper on the stuff that I am taking now. I mentioned before that I am close to getting a degree in biblical studies. I feel so ill prepared, I feel like I have so much still to learn....so not ready yet. I really miss having a mentor, i have been blessed in the past to have one, I guess it is something for me to pray about.

I have been listening to the band Red. I got their cd in april last year, a couple weeks before I headed out tree planting. I am actually listening to them now, i really like them, i recommend getting their cd.

I have been facsinated by the book of Ezekiel lately hence the valley of dry bones.

I should go to bed....

It's a new year

Its weird to think that I am done a semester of classes already and starting in to some new ones already. Where has the time gone by?
I had classes last week, i feel though I haven't switched gears into be a student again. I have class tomorrow morning at 8:30...bah....i signed up for that class in july when I was getting up at 5:30 each morning thinking that 830 class would be no problem, forgetting that I usually don't go to bed at a decent time during the school year...oh well :P
i wish i was done school. Seriously tho, i have been in school for five years already. I am wanting to be done, and right now, it is really hard to have the drive to do school when my heart is in so many different places. I am also a credit away from getting my degree in applied biblical studies from clbi, which i could of finished it off last year...maybe I should finish it off this year??? I am also at the stage of being able to apply as a social work qualifying student, but who knows, i might not go back to school next year, pray for me... i think the adventurous side of me I have been trying to keep latent is starting to create a restlessness in me.
But..I am learning how to manage my time. I have more classes than last year, working more hours than last year, I have more responsiblities this year, and I am trying to maintain good friendships with everybody. I think I work better understress and the classes that I have taken so far I have ejoyed....And I know the general direction that God is calling me to do, and to do it, I need to the schooling to help equip me to do it soooo...(back at square one..)
I was thinking about 1 peter 5:5 today. ...all of you clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because God opposes the proud and gives grace to the humble...I was thinking about the fine line of false humility and true humility (which is, to my understaning, and from what I have been told, is: not relying on your own strength but Gods) And I was thinking about the importance of walking with eachother in true humility, being able to ask for help, allowing others to see your baggage. God definitly uses us help others... to be a friend... to listen.. be able to see the value of a person beyond their actions...when we are humble.
I think i am thinking about this because I am going to be starting to volunteer somewhere, somewhere I am going to have to be tested and totally transparent. So, again, if you are reading this, pray for me, pray that God will work in my heart to become humble, pray for wisdom for me, pray for patience, pray that God will send me His strength.
well,its late and I have to get up in a few hours and I have been listening to the same song on repeat for a while now.
I hope all of you are doing well, I am praying for you too!

the ever passing moment

i came across a blog that was tittled: music is my boyfriend. the tittle made me happy....
Lets see, whats going on in my life? Umm.... Last weekend I got to go down to swift current and see Means play, which totally made my holiday. My mom came up to swift so I got to hang out with her, which was nice to spend sometime with her. I also got to hang out with suzy and i went down to millar on sunday to go to church in vangard with patty cakes (my sister). Besides that I have just been working and hanging out with friends in the city.
I finsihed christmas shopping and am still in the process of wrapping them. Yes, this year i was ambitious, nobody is getting gift cards.
So i am not going home for christmas eve or chirstmas day. i am working, but you know what? I AM SO PUMPED. (although i am sad that this is my first year away from home for christmas) but, I get to spend it with a bunch of kids and be able to share it with them. i get to be there when they open gifts and spend time with them. i think the song by Third Day christmas like a child, it hits home. www.myspace.com/thirdday
But I will be coming home on boxing day, and my friend megan is getting married on the 29th, which also makes me happy, and I am so excited for them.
i haven't been doing anything super great or exciting but, life is good. God is good. And this christmas season, i have been focusing just the gift of Christ, that he has come, we have hope that doesn't disappoint and life abundantly. i confess, i have no clue what i am doing with this life. i don't know where i am going to be doing or even where i am going to be in the next couple of years. So many uncertanties when i step outside my door. But it is not really up to me for me to worry about. there is so much pressure for us our twenties to figure out our lives, figure out what we are doing, get our educations, and so forward. i am trying to hear Gods voice in the midst of all this. And sometimes He doesn't give me a clear direct answer, sometimes he gives me many possiblities. or maybe he doesn't want me to know exactly, maybe he wants me to live life in the present which then the future arises out of. I don't know where I am going with this...
I am excited about the uncertanties. I have a few things that i think God is calling me towards and opening oppertunites. I just have a few pieces of a puzzle...
well, I am going to make a cup of hot chocolate and watch a movie.
Merry Christmas!

auntie

So for those of you who don't know, I have been working at the crisis nursery. I love going to work, and it has been such a huge learning experience for me. The kids that come through are sooo cute, and really I just want to take them home.
I just want to share an experience that I had yesterday. I took a nine month old into a walk-in clinic, which took me forever to figure out how to put a car seat into my car, by which I now realize why families buy four door cars or mini vans. Anyways, the baby was really sick and crying all the way there. Thankfully i managed to calm him down in the doctors office....but it was really funny, a person came up to me and said, "you have such a cute little son". I didn't want to explain that he was not mine, so i replied with a very generic answer...."yes, he is a cute little guy" . Then when I sat down with the other people in the waiting room, and I could see a group of middle aged women looking at me from accross the room, wispering, and giving me really funny looks (okay, so us women probably know that "baby gaze" that we probably give to other women that are holding babies??). I think in my head, the thought of being a mom is such a forgein concept to me. I also feel so young to even have a baby, so it felt kinda wierd, thinking that people thought I had a baby. Then I finally got into the doctors office, where I waited and waited, trying to keep him happy and not screaming his head off.... meanwhile the little tike had the biggest dump, probably of his life...hahaha.....and the small cubical of a doctors office was radiated with the stentch of baby crap!! So I changed him right then and there and left a present in the doctors garbage bin..hehehe...then the doctor (who was a fairly young guy) came into the room and was hit with a wall of stench....(i secretly giggled). anywho, that was my adventure, I have many others too, like adventures of potty training or how to do head lice treatments...i guess it is all in a days work ;)

Peas

This is rather random
But,
It has taken me twenty three years to decide that I do not like peas. For many years I tried to convince myself that consuming them was enjoyable, especially the garden peas. However, I think I only really liked garden peas because I used to steal them from my moms garden as a kid, so it really wasn't the taste that appealed to me, but the thrill of successfully ramsacking the garden of them. So as I matured into adulthood, I lived with the sense that somehow i liked the taste of peas and forced myself to eat them. However, today I realized, after being offered some peas from a garden, I declined...I really don't like peas.

Global Domination

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things to look forward to this weekend...

ice skating
making cookies at school with a friend
catching up on my women and gender studies/study for the exam
the tree 63 concert hanging out with briana
Chelsea coming to see me
hot chocolate
work
Tabby's show
and....

THE RIDER GAME!

a blank slate

There is a phrase that is reiterating itself in my head. It is going over and over, slighty eating away. It might not mean anything to you who is reading this, but as for me, it seems to be making me angry.
"how can someone impact their world when they can't even make it to a meeting?"
I joined this group through mosiac, where they meet once a week, where they get together and talk about things that as a group they can do in the city to help out. One week, they talk and pray about situations and possible places that they can help out, and the alternating week they go and serve. When I joined, I told the person in charge that it was a sweet idea, however, i wouldn't be able to make it to the meetings on monday nights, (i have school) but when they do the outreaches, I would be more than willing to help out(b/c they usually have been on the weekends). And that seemed to be okay with them. So, when they have sent out an e-mail stating that they are doing something, I have gone down and did it. But I keep getting these e-mails saying that how I need to be more committed, and giving me a general feel that I am not doing enough. I guess that phrase is icing on the cake for me.
I am learning not to care what people think of me. If someone wants to think that i am lazy and that this type of ministry is not on a priority list for me....
There are a lot of things breaking my heart lately,
my heart breaks for the kids at the nursery, for the situations that some of them have come out of, and for the kids that are getting pushed into our messed up system. My heart breaks when I am driving down the alphabet streets and I see young women get into cars and the hell that awaits for them. My heart breaks for the abused and hurting, knowing that all I really can do, is to sit and listen. My heart breaks for my friends who are going through tough times.
But their are a lot of things that are restoring my heart as well, that give me tears of joy. God knows my heart, God knows what I do, and i will leave it at that.
I really can only do so much, physically, I am tired, mostly because I have been battling a virus for three weeks, most days I am feeling achey and cold coughing up nasty things. Last weekend, one night I was so sick that I couldn't hold anything down. I also had a bunch of people over, which was unfortunate that they got to hear me barfing all night long. But I broke down, and I am going to see a doctor tomorrow.
So how can someone impact their world when they can't even show up for a meeting?
well, I would rather go and do something that is hands on, where I am not sitting on a comfortable couch discussing about all the things we could be doing sipping back tea.
Personally, I don't think that he was trying to be hurtful, but I think he's got backward tactics for trying to get people to come.
So, I am in the process of writing him an e-mail, simply stating that I can't come tonight because I am busy, which is further going to solidify his opinion of me.
.whatever.

El commande-joe

I started a new job last week and I love it.
I have been very blessed!