week five: the bugs attack. I have never, ever been around so many bugs in my life. They swarm, fly in to your mouth, try to crawl up the nose, bite behind you ears, dive bomb your face, and get into your food. You hope that your bug sray works, but it only seems to attract them, while you expose yourself to the deet, it feels like a lose-lose situation.
I have been thinking about chasing after the wind.
Everything is meaningless under the sun?
What motivates you?
Wealth? Power? Prestige? Responsiblities? Obligations?
What makes a person get up everyday, put on clothes, go to work or school, visit friends...
If I didn't have God, everything would be meaningless.
I slave away all day under the hot sun, all for the almighty dollar, so that I can pay for school....it is meaningless...
But there are things that in the end, through doing things that are meaningless, that I have learned.....Perserverance seems to be one of them...
I have been reading Ecclesiastes. I really do not grasp the wisdom that it presents. But God reveals...
I make no sense right now...this is the latest I have stayed up in awhile.
I am going to go to bed, a nice warm bed, in a motel room, where it is bug free...yay
3 comments:
Hi Marian! I am glad you are surviving! That is really crappy about the bugs though....ugh. You have good questions....many of which I a can relate to...and are struggles for me too
yeh you a a three day break...except i am mad that u didn't get four days! no offense to kjersti but i wanted to see u more than him...haha...sucka! but he did give me a ride into town last night and for that i am thankful. i wish i could have seen u though. i miss u and hope that even though u don't love your job and even though u just do it, i hope there is little random things u can take from it, things that make u appreciate life and God...and how u get to see more facial hair than i ever will in my whole life...i am so jealous! anyways, i love you babe! yeh half way!
HEy Marian... I haven't talked to you in FOREVER... I love ecclesiastes, it is just so human. It stands for thoughts that everyone has at some point in their lives.
How many trees are you up to now?? I read that you were planting like 90 a day...
Good luck with the bugs.
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